Because This is My First Life

Because this is my first life

I am

So clumsy for taking the wrong paths

So guilty of the sins I have committed

So incapable of solving my own puzzles

So innocent to be foolish

So insecure of judgements

So Lost in Translation

So mean to have hurt people

So naive to be happy for the things I shouldn’t

So prone to making mistakes

So reckless of making the wrong decisions

So traumatized of tragedies

So vulnerable of heartbreaks

But because this is also my one and only life,

I’ll make sure that I live the best of everyday.

I won’t hold myself back from my dreams

I’ll keep cruising on the waves that’ll only harsher everytime

And I promise to love myself more with each passing day.

            What I try to explain through these words is that you will never get everything the way you want them to be. Sometimes you gotta let your ego away and take your second or even tenth choice. But that is not the point. Becuase in some point in your life. You will be greatful that you first choice was not the thing that became reality.

            Don’t worry, because you have your god who listens to your prayers. Who understands your sadness more than anyone else. Who knows how much you have put your effort into making your life and the life of the people around you better. And that is what keeps you alive and well all this time.

Hang in there, be patient ... it may be hard but but it will get easier somehow, someway, someday ...